iN HeAveN's NaME ...

2003-10-28T06:09:00.000-08:00

not feeling good recently...getting emotional lo...
didnt know why...dont seems to have anyone i can talk deep into...or maybe i dodnt know what to say? cos i juz dont know what has gotten into me lo...this is really sick!!!

=aubrey=
hmm...aubrey yap...suddenly he came into my mind this old primary fren ..haha...wanted to find him badly i guess...juz to know how he's doin now? lolzz... i have like 5 years? i didnt see him? duh? well, tats true lo..since the graduation day in primary school i havent seem him already..haha...told justin about it tat day and he say its all fated...singapore is so small...i'll be able to find him...haha...maybe lo...its kinda like so what if i found him? what can i do?
ya...SO FORGET ABOUT IT!

=Dumbs!=
well, recenlty..er..since this sem or trem starts is already kinda bored...but what boils me is some despratedos tat came into our school for like 3 months? ==> SINGAPORE NAVY CHEF?? tat comes to our sch for cooking course?...arent they suppose to come here to study? or come here to chase gals? duh!
they came to our TR yesterday...then all sorts of blah...they saw me at the library juz now...crowd ard my grp doin project..came askin if they or rather their fren could know me or want my phone no.??? LAMERS..=X i felt disturb...to be honest...they suck at tat...whats more is = they are from the navy? GOD! SINGAPORE NAVY ?? 'S er... chef? and this is how they present and protrait themselves shouldnt they be ashame of themselves?shouldnt we be ashame tat we have this kinda pple in the singapore navy??! i know it might be quite mean to say they in tat way...but rite now this is how i feel lo!!
okie..forget about tat ...whats' more...some idiots actually came to chat with me in irc...nevermind i'll chat...if not shows tat im so stuck-up.....but 1 idiot agitate me by flooding the chat window with words like "can be frens?","u there?" ...etc and still can say his pc kinda got "shock"?? "shock"????? what? shock to see me or what?duhz.im already so moody since morning...im fed up lo...

2003-10-26T07:22:00.000-08:00

=a few days ago=

apparently i do miss him...dreamt of him 2 nites ago...this old fren of mine...aubrey. i muz say...stuff arent tat simple...the memories and frenship we share are spe=

2003-10-23T06:07:00.000-07:00

orh...didnt write for a week??-_^...whatsoever...=Z

=last thurs=

orh..kinda had my temper on thursday when i was having productivity studies...lolz..it was kinda lame la...actually it concerns if im goin to visit zhi hong's church lo...erm..not wether to go or not ...juz tat wondering why he doesnt know how to ask me in person lo...er...i think its pretty rediculous to be unhappy abt this cos he never really ask liyin n sonia who r going in person too..but it reminds me of someone...ya.. -->shaun. dont know y..juz being senstive i guess... i dont like guys who like wanna ask me n my frens go out or what..then dont dare to ask us in person...i mean there nothing wrong abt going out ?? (OR IS THERE ANY??????)..okie...whatever k?...this is not the mainpt......everytime guys dont dare to cum up to me...either to talk or to get my phone no. all those blah blah...stuff ...they go ask their fren to cumz up to me...or help get my phone no. for them...i get agitated...erm...not say angrry lo...juz that they can dream on...if they wanna to get my no. NEVER!....
>>( er..guys dont blame me k? ) its becos what i have gone through...in that never ending relationship btwn me n shaun...it affects me tat much..n i think if i never stop myself from liking him...it will still gonna be a never ending story btwn the 2 of us...or even 3...i guess.=Z<< ----> kk..i dont think any of ya will understand my whole big juck of rubbish here...NVM.(ask me if u r curious to know...bt i might not answer)
okie...the tot of shaun make me wanna cry(on thurs) ...think i muz be crazy...fancy giving tot abt wat has happened like 2 yrs ago or even more kinda 3 yrs ago?? hmmm... it will still hurts i guess...havent think abt him for a long time...haha.. think i'll forget abt him le...soon...cos dont wanna remember ba...

=These few days..=
tired n tired!!!
ya some probs crop up with the 4 of us...er...mainly...yin n tior..didnt know whats wrong honestly...kinda becos of some misuderstanding i guess....well...it start with Mr "T...."..er..ya...this guy created much havoc here btwn us ...without knowing it...ya...well, i shldnt say muz abt this..cos its kinda senstive issue btwn us...anyway..his name sounded trouble btwn the 2 of them so i make sure i never mention this name infront of them at one go...especially i shall never mention this name infront of tior anymore....dont seem rite..saying his name ever again lo!
n orh ya... say him today...at the mrt...ya...well, pratically juz say hi.... ya...
rite now i juz hope tat nothing regarding this issue will happen again ...maintain the peace k? well, i muz say this guy doesnt worth a cent to me...so y be bother abt him...and spolit de frenship...isnt it silly???

opps almost forgot...congratulations to my dear tracy...she has found her love....haha...=XxXxX

2003-10-11T07:34:00.000-07:00

=BoRinG SaTuRDae=

its kinda boring todae...i sepnt my whole day at home...lazing ard..watch TV and sleep lo...bored bored de!!!...
anyhow..juz read tracy's blog...i think she kinda juz wrote it today,i mean it was updated...hmm..crazy abt love?? i cant say tat..u should know..she tat kinda cool cool gal , very indepent,confidence... not someone easliy shaken...(i muz say..not tat becos she read my blog i have to praise her)..tats what i think of her...when i unhappy she will be there to console me anyway...
recently...she told me..tat she kinda fall in love? with a guy...in her class lo..and she is kinda borther by it...u know de , gals are always so sensitive about the guys they like...wonder what happen if they call, what are they thinking about when they dont call...--> 'does he like me?' ,'should i call him? since he doesnt call?', ' do i really like him tat much?'...blah n blah... who doesnt been thru tat before? i guess most gals at our age had already been thru tat already...at least i muz say...i have fallen in love before and i totally knoes how she feels...but what could i do to help?? well, love is a hard to define kinda thing...and no one can help...no matter how much we say...its juz another advice lo...

seriously...i felt sad...i mean...i tot of what i have been thru..when i read her blog..and hear what she told me abt ...er...her liking of this particular guy...i got caught in almost the same situation before...n in de end i give up..cos im juz to tired to carry on liking tat someone out there....okie...forget about even mentioning it...!!!cos i totally regretted it...
juz hope tat tracy wont be giving up ...as in liking tat guy...maybe she's right...she shld tell the guy about how she feels toward this whole thing....but....i really dont know...maybe...

sometimes its juz very funny tat a guy can be so cold towards you...when he actually happen to be very close to you...isit like what we always say : 'so near yet so far'??
hmmm...ya..i guess so...its juz like...ya...=Z

anyhow... juz hope tat all bad will come to ...er... good ? ya ... after all my leg still hurts alittle bit bit...lolz =X n ya..tarcy all the best...anything like you feel like talking to someone juz give me a call or what lo...=> take care k?

2003-10-10T05:27:00.000-07:00

= Disastrous Day =

duhz>? well, kinda not a good day for me..=(...sprain my ankle/leg...lolzz..not very painfull though...juz hope i wont get worse...why i fall??hmm..becos of the shatec stairs ..and er..becos i was smsing on the phone to someone. and i merely miss a few steps..on the stairs...haizz...not good..but im not tat sad either...i mean i dont feel very bad abt this...special thanks to liyin and frens accompanying me and oya..liyin's dad...for sending me home...honestly other than the pain i felt...the swollen or whatsoever didnt really bother me...im too tired after yesterday's proposal which made me stay up to like 12 plus? lolz..

today's lesson was like hell...=X 3hrs of food production mgt and 3hrs of Financial accounting? so boring...luckily i gotta buy crackers to eat on the way to school...so the whole time i was actually muching in class..keke..

ya...jer was messaging me juz now when i got home..told him abt the sprain...and he was like 'how cum?' --> how would i know?? if i know i wont have tt sprain lo..=X ya, and he told me tat he will bring gyoza for me on monday... YEAH!!! finally i will get to eat his gyoza...=P he said tat since i might be immobile tat day he will bring me gyoza lo...(dont worry jer...i will keep my promise on that japanese curry rice k? but dont get too fat hor..if not i wont cook for ya le=XxX)keke.. anywayz..dont even know i will go to school not...cos u know de my leg...somemore tat day gotta TR-->waiteress....how? i also dont know if im able to stand for tat long not..even if i can wear court shoes already...

kk...now its the update of theme party...lolz..okie..its more or less settle as 'Pajamas nite' le..=> (good theme...).The propsal has been handed up...hope that it will be more or less approve... (pray pray pray) =X ... ER... actually...didnt think the MOCKTIAL or so call WELCOME DRINK will work well...=X (sorry to say tat) Cos it's Virgin Pina Coloda?? --> coconut milk? with de pineapple juice? hmmm...to me it doesnt taste nice ... Cos..it's like kinda funny lo...and also its 'VIRGIN" --> meaning it's a cocktial originally...!!!!!!!!so... it wont taste as good and for pple like me i like the fresh and fruity taste in mocktial...drinks like 'Sherry Temple' , 'Fruit Punch' ...etc i dont like da thick thick taste one...especially 'Virgin Mary' --> mocktial version of ' bloody mary' i guess... it tasted like pasta sauce..erk..ya... so i actually went to ask Justin --> this former pro-bartender of a particular pub/club abt it . he told me its was ok ..not very bad lo...drinkable..? so is what??drinkable only?? i dont know....maybe it was not to our taste lo.. . i ask this Justin to help me since the mocktial for his theme party was created by him guess what he told me?? he ask me to think abt the mocktial myself...unless i cant think of anything then i ask him...lolz...how would i know anything abt it lo...(i'll try) but we have to try irwin's --> the theme party's bartender's "Virgin Pina Coloda" first...before we change....anythin.....ya...=)

2003-10-07T07:10:00.000-07:00

=Tired day...=

orh...its so tired today...juz got back home from outside..haizz and i guess i caught flu again...
anyway , i when to watch movie today..infernal affair 2 by edison chen and shawn yu..okie..it wasnt as good as i expect...but it was flim quite nicely especially those sound effects...they were what the guys always says 'POWER!'...it was so loud especially those gun shot effects..my god ..all of as got a shock of our life when we heard the first one...and some of the since were juz too bloody for kids...its like those NC-16 movie..ya..it was more of a movie tat emphasized on facts than on story. no such thing as love stories...inside this...more to reality world..i shall grade it as 3 n 1/2 out of 5 ...yup....actually i think guys will love this story...

i find today's 'watching movie' kinda fun though tired... firstly before we even step into the theatre ...jun han who bought Nachos complain...eating nachos reminds him of thoes days where he goes out wif his ex to watch movie and they ate nachos together....lolz... so naggy keep saying and saying like 5 ,6 times?? then was tior who was very crazy about edison today...-_^...she was like ' He is so cute ....' all the time...when edison wsa on the screen...and all i say is ' ya ya ...' well, was should i say? i mean i came with tat intention to watch edison only but....i wasnt tat crazy then...she is so funny...keke...=p (sorry tior...didnt mean to mention ur name..but u r juz too cute...keke...didnt know u r tat crazy abt edison...tot...u only loved orlando blooms) =X . next it was irwin...keke...he was kinda shock by the gun shot sound...and kept asking..1991 go use gun?? i tot they should use pa lang knife?...(dont know if i spell correct not thing should be wrong..o ya there's a time frame in the movie) =X...then was the guys...the drank too much and all wanted to go toliet...keke...ya quite fun la....still have some i didnt want to touch on...cos im to tired to think already...

okie, now the theme party again...pajamas theme ...hmmm...actually i think tat will be our final theme liao...cos barry has got the price of pajamas and they were damm cheap...then props...well, im not too sure about the props stuff...but i guess i juz have to believe tat the props and costume pple can work on it lo... then basically for F&B ...the menu of the day ...its rather settled already....ya... i think everything muz have to be get settle in 1 or 2 days time so...i think i will update with u pple in this few days lo...

2003-10-06T04:20:00.000-07:00

=MoNdAy , TR=

This term im under Mr Baljit for F&B operations...those pple out there who know me will know im dead scared of him...u know sometimes he can be very vrey fierce...and im a definate blur girl...as my frens always says..dont wanna offence him...so i actually dread coming to school today for TR..but still i have to face the fact and go to school..juz like what Jer say ' truth hurts..' =Z

i muz say these wasnt what i have expected...he didnt really yell at us juz talk to us nicely(during debriefing) ...but i know i was damm blur as a waiteress...but what sucks more was tat my captain was even worse off than me... -- me, barry and jun han who was under him got to even do his job for him...we were rushing in and out of the kitchen like crazy idiots...and i even have to help him take order and teach him how to get order....I MUZ EVEN TELL HIM WHEN TO GET CUSTOMER'S ORDER TOO!! this is like far to ridiculous...compare to us , iqbal's side station was far more relax they have like sonia and li juan as the waitress stated in the duty roster plus yvonne the wine waiter who need not serve wine today and zu xue the runner...a ratio of 3:4 ...lolz...moreover iqbal was a good captain who knoes his duties well...so they have no much problems during service...please for god sake dont assign me to my 'captain of the day' again...dont wanna work under him and if i ever become the captain....dont assign him to me... i might vomit blood...(o..ya...he has been under me before...when i was the captain at visions...)

okie...then there is the Head-waiter for today...u know la...usual one...stuff like communication breakdown between her and us and her and the customer one la...when it comes to her i got nothing to say...cos' obviously...i cant communicate with her...everytime i try communicate with her...i get fustrated...and it juz make me wanna say '@$%#*%^' =X
ya...tats abt it for the TR today...on wed me and iqbal will be the head and assistant head - waiters..hope things works out well...=)

mentionin abit about the theme party again...there might be changes once again regarding the theme...(might can to pajames nite kinda theme)...its okie for me cos it sound interesting , simple and not so costly......hope the whole class agree to it ...

=dE PrOBlemAtic OnE=

u know la ... the prob between this particular gal and guy in our class...this gal unhappy abt this guy who liked her cousin...=XxXx (Cant say too much)

ya...the guy and arron's b-dae is round the coner...me, tior and liyin got him (plus arron) a present and ask her if she wants to share the present...according to what tior say..her face turned black..when we ask her to share... = unwilling to share the gift for this guy...only wanna share for arron's gift...(Stingy...petty... =X) =X but in the end she was kinda left with no choice but to share in both gifts...(u dont u juz share arron's gift if it makes u feel better??? =X)

juz dont understand y...this thingy (the cousin thingy) has already become a past...the guy have stopped harshing her cousin ... y she has to give tat guy a black black face...duhz? and it make us sick as we also can see her black black face... the most funny thing is tat when this guy is not ard...she become like so different..smile and talk to everyone...plus the guy's frens...SO FAKE!!!... dont like the way she behave...like what arron say 'spolit bratz' ...its nothing but truth..dont understand y till now i still can give in to her....i muz be crazy to do tat...=Z anyway..cant be bother already... cos' sometimes i will feel so sick hanging ard with her...( u muz be thinking tat im so mean to say tat...but have a taste of her attitude...u will hate it... ) But still after much complain what can i do...she is still my fren after all...

2003-10-04T20:51:00.000-07:00

=ThEmE PaRtY=

one fine nice day sunday today... but it looks like its gonna rain anytime... nevermind... anyway i'll be rotting at home again...=P

okie...lets juz come back to the topic! - de theme party...
haiz...our class the dtm703 have kinda A.P honeslty...some people juz cant work with one another, and others are juz some arrogant assholes and bitches...=X okie i muz admit that at times i can be bitchy too..=X (there are also good people in our class!! i juz say some.)

till now...we have only like kinda settle on who is surpose to do what...as in what role each of us in class have to play in this theme party thingy.and it took like 5 days to decide? wont it be any longer? and the theme...what kind of theme is it in this party? no idea..it have been set into theme A and them B , theme A is 'cleopatra' which i and liyin only wanted to change it to other names like ' egyption nite' ...its nicer right? rather than juz ' cleopatra'?-- okie..juz my idea...theme B is beach plus movie ..not very nice and a its common theme...especially the beach part..HELLO!!!!HOW MANY TIMES MUZ I SAY ???A THOUSAND TIMES? DHM702 A CLASS HAVE DONE HAWAIIAN BEACH ALREADY JUZ LIKE 2 MONTHS OR SO AGO...BE MORE CREATIVE ! THOUGH OUR THEME IS BEACH PLUS MOVIE...BUT IT AINT GONNA BE BIG IN DIFFERENCE!!!!! i undersand tat it is the left as the final choice...cos ' cleopatra' is a real nice theme juz tat its gonna be too costly...its up too wether the class is motivated enough to invest the money at a price or 17 bucks to 18 bucks to raise our total budget to ard 600 plus? not so possible huh? im willing to do tat...to invest for my results for f&b operations...even if tat means i have to fork out more than tat 25...and im serious..anyway...as long as we got the profit its ok...but again better dont exceed the budget to more than 600 plus bucks ... beocs tat will means tat we will have very low profit or even no profit! (so class...can u all juz willingly or even reluctantly fork out the 17 or 18 bucks...17 bucks for 35 of us will be 595bucks and 18bucks for 35 of us will be 630 and if 17 bucks is given by each of us then the ticket's selling price can be 12buck profit will be 5 bucks??...as for a total of 630 as the budget...we muz mark up the price to 13 buck to earn profit...juz a little of profit..)...but again tats juz my idea of the budget thing...final say will be the chairman and chairwomen not me..so i better be the one shuting up...dont be a kpo before people start calling me a BITCH... ya...

seriously, i hope the 'cleopatra' theme works...and im praying for it to work...really...especially if we can get the costumes and props at a reasonable price....*im crossing my fingers praying for tat* ...Denise , Tior the props and costumes team...'Jia you !! k? kanbate ne! i support u all !!! =) '

hmm...ya...as for me i better be prepared to rush out the over proposal by thursday night if the date due of proposal is friday...so i cross my fingers and hooe tat everything can be sort out before like wednesday nite ? (again tats only my wish...i guess if i ever tell them tat it will be fat hope!...i know we can never get it done by then unless miracale strikes...=< )

okie...tats about it -- the craps about this theme party stuff as for some of those real unhappiness between one another in class...im gonna keep to myself...shh...keke =)...but lastly i have to say...:" guys and gals...if u are not happy about something or someone juz say it out, confront him or her, reason it out...hey!didnt ask u all to fight k? juz sit down and talk about it peacefully!!!...dont always give people tats FACE as if the whole world owns you...u will juz look like a bloody asshole =X and lots of people will feel like giving you a tight slap right on the face! even ur own frens will wanna do it !! (some people reading this ... u should know who im talking about ...dont wanna mention too much of it as tat FACE wasnt given against me...against some other ones but shown to the whole bunch of us or even to the class...)

2003-10-04T09:54:00.000-07:00

hmmm...1st timer...=>
what is it like when the someone u kinda interested in told u...' i have got someone i like...'
duhz..bad rite...muz be so sad..

i kinda find tat ,this kinda stuff always happens to me...ya..my frens will say..'Nahz,u still got so many pple who like u...juz pick and choose frm there...wats' the prob?'
i dont get how come they juz can come out with this logic...not fair...! they juz wont understand how i feel untill they get it i guess... i know...there will be lotta guys for me to choose...but i might not be interested in him..or more to say he is juz INTERESTED in me...not as in like in tat kinda situation... ,i juz wanna get someone who tends to like me more than i like him??-_^..hmmm..... ya maybe...cos i think im selfish...dont wanna get anymore too deep into a relationship...i get so tired hurting myself each time...not the first or second time already!!!....

somedays ago ...this particular guy told me tat 'hey..i have go someone i like' and actually...dont feel good abt it...=X...as in not becos i liked him..juz tat..kinda interested in him...haha luckily i didnt fell deep ...as to like him...keke...anywayz...pple who read this dont ask me who...cos i swear no matter how hard u try to ask me...im not gonna tell ya...=P and to this guy:' ya not gonna know tat!...and truly hope tat u got the gal u liked soon...'

not to be generous or what...juz find tat this kinda stuff its a kinda fair thing...i'll find my ' the one' somedays...so y be bother about it....=)